David said in Psalm 39:7, “And now, Lord, what wait I for? My hope is in thee.” As I’ve looked over stockholder reports and news media updates this week, my expectations have plummeted and skyrocketed. As of yesterday, I just don’t know what to expect. This was the verse I hung beside my bed last week and it was just jumping out at me. My heart cried out to God, “What am I waiting for?” Some reports I read showed that most of the children on the study didn’t have any progress over 72 weeks, almost a year and a half. I also found out that where Joy is situated in comparison to them is in the lower percentile for ability. Are my expectations for her improvement too high? We also found out that this medication is predicted be among the most expensive in the world, possibly between $500,000-1 million a year. Are my expectations for insurance to cover that too high? Will any of this be processed in enough time to make a difference for her? She’s still regressing weekly. Are my expectations for a timeline too high? When I stopped to think about it, I asked myself again, “Lord, what am I waiting for?” Thankfully, David answered the question and I came to the same conclusion. “My hope is in thee.” David says it elsewhere, “my expectation is from Him.” I don’t know what to hope for so I can just hope in Him. He knows the best path and His plan is perfect. Today, I can rejoice in one step taken, praise the Lord for His providence in this…and then go unload the dishwasher. Please pray that I can make it that simple. I want to wait on Him and completely trust but of course, my mind keeps playing out the different scenarios.
We’ve asked the Lord to clearly show us the path. Please pray with us that doors will open and close as He sees fit and we will be sensitive to His leading. We want to see His name glorified ultimately, but we’d love to see deliverance for Joy.